the defender of man

My name and maiden surname both mean the same thing "the defender of man", I always thought that I was somehow assigned to a task, a great duty or purpose... 

I have always felt like somewhere deep down a warrior was lurking, waiting for the battle that was defined and decided by the name given to me dos veces.

But how do you be warrior/soldier/hero/fighter, into our time? When the battlefield is no longer a place for honourable men, when the fight is no longer right or wrong, when we no longer shout -FREEDOMMM!!!!! When swords are no longer the weapons used to fight wars, but rather depth of your pockets.

What do you do about the itch, the uneasy feeling in the pit of your stomach, because you know when you watch the movies like Gladiator, 300, The last samurai and Brave heart , these are the tales of peoples life’s, the story out which heroes and legends are born, because you know in this world of honour less men with deep pockets and long fingers, there is no black or white, and the villain might just be the hero, hidden behind the propaganda and misinformation feed to you by all the big media corporations... (and no I am not a conspiracy theorist.)

 Those were times when the sword was not just a weapon but a symbol of your honour.  How times have changed... 

What do I when I feel too small to make a difference?  

I once said, "how can a man be happy and simply satisfied with the world as it is, how can a MAN sit back and think that his world ends at the edge of his property? 

I was taught that our world was created by God speaking it into creation,  so maybe these words will one day change the world,  but simply waiting for change will not quiet my uneasiness. ..

 

it ain't about how hard you can hit- Rocky Balboa

Somewhere along the line you changed. You stopped being you. You let people stick a finger in your face and tell you you're no good; and when things got hard you started looking for something to blame, like a big shadow. Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward; how much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done!


Now if you know what you're worth than go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers sayin' you ain't what you wanna be because of him or her or anybody! Cowards do that and that ain't you! You're better than that!


Until you start believing in yourself, you ain't gonna have a life.