Its as if you now see the leaves that were only green blobs before. This little person is your gift and your responsibility. The thing that you never knew you missed till you found it and now your world won't be the same without it. Wow! that is major!
Your time is no longer selfishly divided into doing things for yourself at your leisure. Your world becomes about making his world perfect.
Then one day you catch yourself, in between being a wife, a mother and having some sort of career, and you wonder who have I become? Am I the person starring at this person in the mirror? Who is that and why does she look that way? Is that flabby/chubby/ungroomed person, me? Gross!!!
Somewhere between disbelieve bordering on a little bit of disgust, I started to think hate my body...
But this was the same body, after all, that had not only carried a beautiful boy but also made it through labour, and natural birth. It is a strong body. But it doesn't look like mine, any more.
So I decided to take my body back, and be a little selfish...
well if only for my vanity...
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